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if u happen to read this post already

lol

im drunk ....

02252012

hello piggie piggie ... isn't those thingy cute ? haha .. well ... some people says romantic = wasting .. the more wasteful is it the more romantic it is .. exactly .. but somehow ... if someone will do that for me I will be super happy .. detached from reality for awhile ... oh yea .. wakie wakie up .. no love no love no love .. aite .. 5 weeks already .. can u believe that ? I'm so busy ... n stressed ... whatever .. bullshit ... I CAN DO THIS .. ! c:

I have a friend going through a hearbreak right now... was chatting with her ... I feel her ... the pain in her eyes ... I don't know what am I suppose to say when she cried .. awkward ... it hurts .. I know ... when a relationship failed both of them have responsible for it ... guilty doesn't really help much nor holding on your anger and pride and give up the relationship because OTHERS say it should end and you SHOULD give up on you mate ... its just plain stupid ... why u care? what is more important ? ur mate or those judgement ? whatever .. she was saying that he left the house ... leaving everything behind for her ... he said u can have all the things, the house everything .. bull shit ... do u guys actually know that things that u guys left is not "things" to us .. its jus plain heart breaking stuffs .. everything that remind us about the memories should be GONE forever .. because it simply hurts ! this remind me so much of what I've been thru .. I don't know .. but whatever .. I just hope that she can be well soon ... actually the whole point is .. are both of the party gonna work things out together or not ? rather than proving who is wrong or who is right and who is it to blame ... and what ? blah ... sad ~

well but sometimes we really have to sort things up because there is chances that things work the other way round ... people take things for granted .. every time ...

feb92012

time flies.....feb already...

birthday is over ... nothing fancy ..

officially 10 months left till next year ..

im so freaking busy .. whatever shit ..

been thinking thingy bout transfer to uni ....

mind fucked ... blah ...

感情。。。真的很脆弱。。

一段我们都以为会永恒的。。。。

就这样没了。。。虽然我不知道原因。。

可是。。。我觉得。。。

双方应该永远也找不会那样爱着自己的人了。。。

为何就这样放弃了？

不管理由是什么。。

我讨厌没有努力追求，尝试就放弃的人。。。

胆小鬼！

我不知道。。。

反正我也好不到哪里去。。。

希望一切都会好起来。。。。

01302012

hollycraps ...

had a really bad sleep ytd .. I doubted if I even sleep ... wtf ..

extremely tired today ... not knowing how am I gonna survived for the classes later ...

gah .. busy hectic week ahead indeed ...

1 week till birthday .. yay ... =]

missing the fam .... ='(

1 month passed already ..

officially 11 months to next year ...

=)

我所浪费的今天。。真是昨天死去的人奢望的明天。。。。

26012012

一切都会是过程。。一切都会过去的。。。。

busy busy busy busy busy ....

my history lecturer is so god damn hawt ! (;

alright .. major random ..

well...

my birthday is coming ...... yay ................... so what ?

dont really wanted to have expectation thou ..

it was major disappointment last year ... whatever ...

blsh ...

i'm so tired ..

sleep first ...

nitez ....

25012012

if u see it u see it ..

if u don't .. u just dont meant to ...

tough semester ....

bring it on ..

I can do this .. c'mon ..

well ..

am craving for asam laksa ...

msia trip is rather disappointing ...

food crave hasnt been satisfied ..

oh well .. whatever ....

am now stuck with those shitty food again ..

gonna make a damn list next time ..

booo ...

stressed ...

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Feelings don't die easily because we keep feeding them with memories.

That's exactly the reason why it's hard to move on.

I bet its time to stop feeding memories ? Memories almost have me killed...lying on the same bed again..everything seems to be exactly the same..the only differences is..you are not here...I'm all alone..its hard for me and its painful for me knowing that u actually don't belongs to me anymore...insomnia...thats 1 of the reasons why I hang out every single night...talking about letting go..I should have...long time ago indeed..I thought I did...really.... too much words remain unsaid/unasked...I don't know if it is too painful for me to ask or said ..or I'm trying to avoid facing the truth...It ran across my mind zillion times and they just stopped by my lips..can't help being a coward..1 year..not too long but certainly not short I would said...promises u said last year...u've broken them already....next year u said...I'm waiting...not paying too much attention or focusing on it thou..u know..it is painful and disappointing when u are expecting but it turns out to be nothing... but I will remember them...u'll prove it u said...i'm waiting...I'm dying to call/text/see u ...but I'm afraid...of what? I'm not sure...I assumed that u lied to her...I some what feel guilty...I know how much it hurts...foolish...I know....I am not even sure if u cares how I feel or so...whatever...if u want we can work things out..no point I working on nothing...but fair and square..back to basic..choices and sacrifices we are talking about...if u are not up for any sacrifices..alright..stay there..like things that u demanded will fall from the sky..whatever...it should come to an end...zillion times I've said so last year...lol..well..I need time..a super hectic year ahead before my next break..cant wait..but first of all..the challenge have just started..time to ciao...I can do it don't I ? of course I do (= ! xoxo

words...say it only when u mean it...because..I'm really serious... thankiew..xoxo